A year ago (Holy crap, it doesn’t feel like it’s been that long) Paul Miller left the internet, The Verge paid him to write about his offline life experience after having his life be so entrenched in the tech world. Yes, I realize I’m blogging about a blogger who blogged–sue me. He came back to the internet on the 1st. Within the article there was a video documentary sort of interview thing. That’s where I got this quote from him:
I’m kind of depressive, for me that means that just sometimes it kind of hurts to be alive, it’s just like-it’s just AH, you know, it sucks that you gotta kind of do each day and keep doing the next day and, it’s just, moments hurt sequentially and when I’m bombarded, you know, with information and stimulation and I can always fill that need every time. I feel like I’m getting bored and I’m not happy so I can go and do something really quickly to kind of fill that need. I think I can confuse the issue and confuse the subject and kind of not quite understand the way I was feeling was deeper than just ‘I’m bored right now.’ It had something to do with ‘I’m deeply stressed that life goes on.’
It was something that absolutely rang true when I was watching the video that I had to transcribe it and put it somewhere safe. I don’t know that my blog is a safe place but I needed to share it.
I also teared up when his niece thought he just didn’t want to Skype with her for a year. So sad how kids take things so personally but generally never talk about it.
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